“Courage...” Erelyn repeated, looking down at Lahkin. Her grip tightened around his hand the same way it always tightened when she needed an anchor. She knew – no matter how much she stood here staring down at him, her eyes pleading for him to fix all of this – it wasn't something any one person could fix.
Alone.
Erelyn's eyes widened. “Oh … no.” She said this more to herself, to the understanding just dawning in her head, but the word seemed to echo in the common room, there in the keep, even buried under ground. She shook her head and said it once again. A knot snapped in the fireplace, startling her. She closed her eyes and focused on Lahkin's hand around hers.
“It's courage, but it's also trust,” she told him. “Nobody trusts anybody anymore.” Her emotions swarmed over her, threatening to eradicate all thought. They pushed her to react instinctively, but deep down Erelyn knew this was one of those problems that required slow, precise thinking – logic.
“When I come through that mage portal to Stormwind, I had nothing. I was alone, see?” She began, only to pause and retreat inside herself once more. Suni had once talked of “tangles” and how they had to be sorted one thread at a time.
Suddenly, Erelyn was reminded of the cat she and Lahkin had encountered so many months ago. She was tangled up in a balloon line, and Erelyn saw now how differently they'd gone about freeing her. Erelyn wouldn't cut the threads this time. No, this time she'd untangle them (like Lahkin had), let him sort through them, and maybe he'd find something useful from them instead.
“I din't have nobody ...” she whispered, chuffed softly, and straightened. She wanted to sit down, but that would mean giving up contact. She wasn't willing to do so just yet.
“I had no one,” she repeated. “I was frightened, too. But then I met my father … before we knew. And, through him I met you and Kordrion. Alelsa wasn't long after. Then came Ronnad, even Turrick and Elise ...”
She glanced down at Lahkin, wondering if she was making any sense. His expression told her nothing, so she pressed on. “From then on, I was no longer alone again.” She turned her head to stare at the door to Kord's office. The wooden door was dwarven, thick and polished with use.
“Even knowing Cyrus has made me stronger,” she whispered, her eyes still narrowed on the heavy door. But, Erelyn was looking inward, Finn's voice filling her head.
See things as they are.
Her mouth worked soundlessly for several seconds, but Erelyn couldn't get the words right in her head. Damn, if only he could read her mind! She clenched her jaw, her hand tightening around his at the same time. She paused, took a deep breath, and began again.
“I have my father's conviction. I have Kordrion's insight. I have your mama's devotion. I have Ron's clarity. I have Finn's wisdom. I have your father's precision. I have Turrick's determination. I have your strength.” She paused. When did her heart start beating so rapidly? Her chest rose and fell in shallow breaths and she realized she was panting. She twisted her head slightly to look down at Lahkin again.
“Do you see? I have all this because we're all connected. Without them, I'd just be …. “
One.
“And if we take those away from … him … “ she waved a hand, forgetting to name the beast aloud. “Then he'd be just … one.”
Alone.