The past few days have been pure hell, just plain and simple, pure Fel hell. Okay, I was captured, tortured, and rescued. I spent some time in the infirmary, and got to feeling better. Well, as best as I can with a freaking witch in my head!
While in the care and torture of Viragona, she carved some kind of rune on my cheek, with a white hot dagger. Yeah, it was fun, never had so much fun in my life. The healers in the infirmary healed my wounds, well at least the physical ones, and released me.
I wear helms that cover my face. I am ashamed to bear this mark from that witch. And she speaks to me...it drives me crazy! She says she won't harm me, but that if I try to remove the rune upon my face, it will hurt much more than it did going on. So I dread the next moment she will whisper into my mind. Listening to my conversations.
My beloved came up with a partial solution...a spell that seems to mute Viragona, so I no longer hear her...well, it seems more like mumbles than true language. But I know she's still there. I fear to sleep, will she speak to my subconscious, make me do things I'm not aware of? Will she set me to kill my beloved Karamia, as those dreams of long ago? Or set me to assassinate my sister Kel'tira? Can I be trusted any longer?
Viragona tells me she hasn't done anything to prevent me from sleeping...but I worry, will I become her instrument of destruction within my family, the Fellowship. I cannot help worry...I could not live with myself if I hurt or killed any of them. They truly are my family, my brothers and sisters of a common goal...I...I feel the weariness and fatigue in me. I must not let myself become under her control...must not...not...
While in the care and torture of Viragona, she carved some kind of rune on my cheek, with a white hot dagger. Yeah, it was fun, never had so much fun in my life. The healers in the infirmary healed my wounds, well at least the physical ones, and released me.
I wear helms that cover my face. I am ashamed to bear this mark from that witch. And she speaks to me...it drives me crazy! She says she won't harm me, but that if I try to remove the rune upon my face, it will hurt much more than it did going on. So I dread the next moment she will whisper into my mind. Listening to my conversations.
My beloved came up with a partial solution...a spell that seems to mute Viragona, so I no longer hear her...well, it seems more like mumbles than true language. But I know she's still there. I fear to sleep, will she speak to my subconscious, make me do things I'm not aware of? Will she set me to kill my beloved Karamia, as those dreams of long ago? Or set me to assassinate my sister Kel'tira? Can I be trusted any longer?
Viragona tells me she hasn't done anything to prevent me from sleeping...but I worry, will I become her instrument of destruction within my family, the Fellowship. I cannot help worry...I could not live with myself if I hurt or killed any of them. They truly are my family, my brothers and sisters of a common goal...I...I feel the weariness and fatigue in me. I must not let myself become under her control...must not...not...