An overly ornate tome with fresh paper and flowing script contains the secret thoughts of An'giel, the last Truesong... has been burned. All past thoughts lost, she grabbed up a new tome, this one black leather bound and sealed with silver gilded pages. There is no trace of the owner's name and each word is written in scarlet ink.
I am not who I say I am. I am not who you think I am. Sometimes, I'm not even certain what I will become, but I will not perish in vain.
I stayed by the grave until the sun was setting. Forcing myself to move was the most soul-tearing experience I had experineced in a long while. My hatred continues to burn, my anger has not diminished in the least, but I know I must become smarter than before.
I am to speak to one of the Fellowship about a personal matter. I am not certain if I ought to simply mail her and hope for a response, but I will take my time. Only half a week left to go until I speak to a healer, first. That is far more important, as I don't see myself repeating past mistakes so readily. If I am confirmed to be infected, I will have no need for an alchemist's assistance in any event.
My little one. She doesn't understand why I am doing what I am, or understand how much more clear my mind is. It is as if I was standing before shattered glass and finally thrust my fist through it to shatter and see the world far more clearly, now.
It is a cold wind that greets me. And I know that I am, once again, alone.
I can't help at feel some past paranoia still grip me, some lingering hint of that former despair from losing him. It continues to plague my mind from that moment of fighting with and mocking the first to tear me from the corpse. A feeling that I ought to be searching for something. But what?
What do you want from me, from beyond the grave?
I will continue to monitor the world, but it is a frozen land I see, just as cold as my heart feels now.
I feel the urge to stain it with blood once again... But is that what you want?
Guide me... I do not look to nature or the Light in this... I need your help.
[Unsigned]
I am not who I say I am. I am not who you think I am. Sometimes, I'm not even certain what I will become, but I will not perish in vain.
I stayed by the grave until the sun was setting. Forcing myself to move was the most soul-tearing experience I had experineced in a long while. My hatred continues to burn, my anger has not diminished in the least, but I know I must become smarter than before.
I am to speak to one of the Fellowship about a personal matter. I am not certain if I ought to simply mail her and hope for a response, but I will take my time. Only half a week left to go until I speak to a healer, first. That is far more important, as I don't see myself repeating past mistakes so readily. If I am confirmed to be infected, I will have no need for an alchemist's assistance in any event.
My little one. She doesn't understand why I am doing what I am, or understand how much more clear my mind is. It is as if I was standing before shattered glass and finally thrust my fist through it to shatter and see the world far more clearly, now.
It is a cold wind that greets me. And I know that I am, once again, alone.
I can't help at feel some past paranoia still grip me, some lingering hint of that former despair from losing him. It continues to plague my mind from that moment of fighting with and mocking the first to tear me from the corpse. A feeling that I ought to be searching for something. But what?
What do you want from me, from beyond the grave?
I will continue to monitor the world, but it is a frozen land I see, just as cold as my heart feels now.
I feel the urge to stain it with blood once again... But is that what you want?
Guide me... I do not look to nature or the Light in this... I need your help.
[Unsigned]
Edited by Angiel on 5/1/2012 10:10 AM PDT