Plain, yet sleak black leather binds these pages marked in simple ink together, and no engravings to show it as anything but an average tome are to be seen. The only notable difference would be the bookmark, a silver thread with an ornate pendant lies between the pages to mark where the writer last stopped.
For who I was, I should mourn.. Consider this an insult. For what I was.. I embrace the power that comes with such a fate.
And the chance at redemption along with it.
I have been dead for some time, or so it seems, though my memories of the time that passed are unclear, or they elude me fully. Where was I durring all that time? For it, my body shows little to no signs of true decay. It remains intact, with only a few scars I don't recall receiving.. It is whole, complete..
It seems fresh. I shall keep it this way for as long as I am able.. If anything, I do not wish to reek of death more so than I already do, though I can't say I can smell it myself.
Things surrounding my rebirth make little sense.. They lead me to believe my memories have been tampered with, which with the power my creator held before his passing.. Does not seem impossible. Whatever it be, I haven been gifted a second chance, and though it hurts what pride I hold onto to do so.. I keep on living.
She asked me today.. Why I haven't destroyed myself, made me realize something too during our test of strength.. I carry far too much shame for this gift, I have hidden my face because of it and, for it, I have been dishonored by my first defeat in a long while. But I would never speak of this burden I carry..
I made amends for it, but none the less.. She bested me once.
It shall not happen again. Nor shall I hide for what shame it may bring me, or the name I once carried, if I cannot accept what I have become, how can I expect others too?
But, some have.. For whatever reasons, I have been offered an alliance with the members of this.. Fellowship. Chancing upon that stone was a blessing in itself, though I do not believe the Light was behind it. It was hers, though..
I digress.
For whatever reasons I will remain in this group, be it a sense of humanity at having companionship, or knowing I am welcomed by at least a few of those who are considered living.. I will give my blade, and fight for it's members..
For fighting is all I am good for. I cannot escape these urges. I was created to kill, and lust for it, and that is something I cannot deny. The sheer bliss of it all, I wouldn't either. One addiction, to the next, I would pray I not be lost to these needs, but even in life I was never one to.
I doubt they would even be heard...